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Sunday, March 13, 2011 -
I hate you.

You stop me from doing things, yet you're doing things that you told me not to.
You kill me when people call me pretty. You agree when people call you cute and gets happy about it.
You delete me when I talk really friendly to guys but you flirt with every single girl on Earth.
You make me do things I don't want to do. Yet you say that you give me the biggest respect.

You say you've no future without me, but when I'm gone, you're still the same happy care-free guy. It's as though I never existed. It's as though you never cared.

Yet I try to fake a smile everytime I see you. Hopefully it'll make you think that I'm perfectly fine without you; that I don't need you in my life anymore. That I still am the strong girl you once knew, that will always get up no matter how hard she falls down.

It works, but I'm dying inside. I miss you but I can't show it. I need you but I can't show it. I love you but I can't show it..

I can't show it to my friends, I can't show it to my family, I can't show it to you. I bottle everything inside hoping that things will get better. Hoping that everything will be alright. Hoping that one day, I'll be able to forget everything.

But no, it's not alright. It's not alright having lost someone you love so much, leave you just like that. It's not alright for someone you love so much, text you saying that they hate you. Not alright for someone you love so much, to not care about you anymore. To never get to share with you your happiness or sadness. To never get to spend anymore time together..

But I wanted this. So why do I feel this way? Maybe I made a wrong move.
Maybe I still love you.

Maybe I just need you back.
Dyana posted @ 11:49 PM